This is a new thing for me. I've never blogged before. I'm creating this as I am supposed to start keeping a journal. Why? Because I'm in a partial hospitalization program. Why? (...as I'm realizing how great of a question this is to be asking myself) The short answer is because I had a mental breakdown. It's hard for me to come to terms with that. I've been going through this for a very long time and I probably should have started this program years ago. The thing is I am working though issues of my childhood and a very painful separation from my significant other that happened about 2 years ago. I guess he's not my significant other anymore, and my heart is still broken (I probably sound like a thousand other people who have blogs...). I can't even say that I'm treading water. Why else would I be in a hospital program?
Right now I'm taking small steps to try to get myself stable. The program is based on getting you back on your feet where you can start to evaluate your problems. I can't even face them right now, I can hardly face myself. So I'm starting to give myself affirmations, eat healthy food, get exercise, and all the other things people do to take care of themselves on a fundamental level.
Today, this is all I can do for now. I'm starting to feel anxious.
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I love you and you're awesome. You're a warrior.
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